3/29/09 - Sunday

Couldn't quite get on here to post before now. On Sunday I went through almost the whole deck - telling the story of myself, as I went through the cards. It was quite fun and enjoyable.

(High Priestess)Once upon a time there was a girl who wanted very much to learn about the mysteries. (Judgement) She was reborn after (6 Pentacles) learning to give and (2 Wands) searching within.

(Kind of Chalices) She met a good and sensitive man (The World) who gave her the world(marriage, happy home, child). (9 Pentacles) They were happy and content together. (8 Chalices) but something was missing.

(King of Swords) She couldn't stop thinking about it. If she could figure out what that missing piece was, (4 Wands) there would be much rejoicing and celebration. (3 Swords) But she feared heartbreak, (4 Swords) so she retreated to rest and ponder.

(7 Chalices) She wanted many things. (Death) She was too materialistic, (2 Chalices) but she knew the value of the love and partnership she'd found.

(The Chariot) They moved (The Sun) to sunny Arizona. LOL!
(The Moon) They were on guard, for this was a strange new world for them.
(The Wheel) This new life held many challenges for them.

(Queen of Swords) She worried constantly. (4 Chalices) Did she make the wrong choice? Was the dream all an illusion? (The Hierophant) She had to learn the rules of life out there. (King of Wands) She had to use her energies wisely. (Queen of Chalices) So she listened to her heart, (5 Chalices) though she often thought of the life she'd left behind.

(Temperance) She knew she must find balance - keeping part of the old life, blending it with the new. or (8 Swords) let go of the memories that bound her, and kept her from living in the now. (3 Wands) She sought a new beginning...

(Queen of Pentacles) She met a woman, financially stable and practical. (Queen of Wands) A woman who knew how to enjoy life. (6 Wands) She had exciting ideas. (Knave of Chalices) She understood.

(3 Chalices) They became friends and enjoyed working together. (Knight of Swords) She started to have new ideas of her own. (Ace Pentacles) A new job opportunity was offered.

(9 Chalices) She had been content in her old position. (6 Chalices) but it wasn't perfect. There was conflict.

(The Stars) She felt the new position would be much more fulfilling and rewarding. (Knight of Pentacles) This would be a profitable move for her. (The Emperor) She felt intimidated by her employer. She felt controlled and powerless.

(7 Wands) She had to fight those ideas. (Magician) She had to take responsibility, have the self confidence to act, (Death) or accept that she will lose herself and this opportunity. (Strength) She needed the courage to act despite her hesitation and desire to avoid conflict.

(Ace Pentacles) The new job (Knave of Swords) would require her full concentration and (Knave of Chalices) to know her feelings. (Ace of Swords) She was strengthened by the pride she felt. Knowing she was wanted, (2 Swords) though she still struggled with how to act on her decision.

(5 Wands) She longed to be part of the team and (6 Swords) knew the move was coming.....

And thats where I had to stop. Funny that the day intruded right about where I am now. I wanted to see how it would end!

Overall a fun excercise. Might do it again, t some extent, though its a big commitment to run the whole deck that way.

March 27

I've been thinking alot - again - about the choice that I will need to make about work. Do I stay with my dr. at my current job, or do I go manage the new spay/neuter clinic?

I like my job and get along with my boss. I have a lot of responsibilities there, which is both good and bad. Financially things haven't been going well there, which is what led me to the opportunity to work more with the local animal rescue group.

I've been working with them twice a month for spay neuter for a couple years now and would love to be able to do more. And they want me for their clinic. They suspect they may be ready to open in July, but there is lots of work to be done.

Tonight I started asking questions and just flipping cards. Not a formal layout, but this is what I got:

1. What do I need to know? (about making a decision/choosing)

7 of Chalices

I can't have both jobs. I need to make a choice. This being cups, I need to go with my feelings on this.

2. But How can I do this?

8 of Swords(Reversed)

I cannot continue to be bound by my own thoughts. My hands are NOT tied. I AM free to choose. I just need to have the guts to MOVE. To just do what I have to do.

3.What will happen when I do decide?

3 of Wands

Once I make the choice, I can be free. My mind can finally be open enough to see what lies ahead in this new world of my choosing.

Its just the actual act - of letting my boss know whats coming thats so hard. I am such a chicken!

March 25 - Wednesday

As, my plan is to read on my days off, I grabbed my deck first thing when I got up. Had lots of fun last night at Aeclectic. Finally joined in on the "Use Your Powers For Good Thread". Trying to figure out what someone - rhombchick - has hidden and where. Think I was too sleepy to nail it, but she said I was kinda close with some of the things I'd seen. Good enough for me,for a first attempt. I'll be back for another try later.

So, for today's reading, I asked: What do I need to do, to best help my son?

10 of Pentacles - Reversed; 2 of Wands; 2 of Chalices (no positions)

I need to focus more on him - less on material things. Stop being such a spendy person because him and his needs are more important. I see the lady-fox as me - not even looking at him - and I can almost hear him, saying "bored! bored! bored!" as he often does.

I need to think hard - as Froggie here is doing. Base my decisions on logic and not emotions.

Was seeing this card last night! :P
This is something that D and I must work on together. This isn't just for me to decide. Love with get us thru. And still the caduceus stands out at me. We need to find the best medicine for him - but the lion looks like a heart.
Love is the best medicine?...

Anything else jump out at you? Something obvious I am missing?

March 22 - Card of the Day

4 of Wands

What I see:
Large house, well maintained. 4 wands as pillars - decorated with greenery. The frogs are dancing.

Its a celebration!

So, today is a relaxing day, to enjoy with my family.
(didn't feel like housework anyway.) :P

Unless, I can relax and celebrate once my house is in order - and well maintained.
:)

The Tarot of the Magical Forest

I am committed to exploring this deck and getting in tune with it. It thus far reads well, if only I trust my intuition.

I "think" I know the standard RW meanings enough to read this deck intuitively, but I have been away long enough that I don't trust what I see.

Practice, reading and time, I'm sure, will go a long way to chipping away my self-doubt. I haven't read for anyone in over 20 years, so part of my doubt may stem from the whole - maybe I've just been kidding myself type doubts.

Not sure that made any sense. Never blogged before either. :P

Anywho, weekly readings at the least. Several times a week is more my goal.

Let the games begin!