April 16 - Thursday

Its been a long time since I've handled this deck. It was nice to find the time again.

I asked:
What do I need to know about tomorrow?
1. The Day
2. The Challenge
3. Advice

1. King of Chalices
The king sits on his throne, alone, floating on the sea. Very emotional day coming. I will feel overwhelmed and isolated.

2. 7 of Chalices

Perhaps I will be distracted - dreaming about my options. My choice has been made, but I have not acted on it yet.

3. 2 of Swords

So hard to read this card sometimes. Does it show what I should do? or the folly in not acting?

I am at a standstill and have been. Does this card advise me to keep the balance? Or tell me to take off the blindfold, stand up and put one sword down?

I keep asking - when? when? when?
So far they aren't saying NOW!

April 9 - Thursday

Just a few questions as I turned over cards:

What do I need to know most?

3 of Pentacles (Reversed)
Things will be getting difficult for me at work. I am feeling it already.

What is the obstacle?

Justice (Reversed)
I am feeling awful about not telling anyone that I am leaving yet. I sit there and we discuss things we plan to do in a few months time, yet I say nothing. I may not be there when they happen. I am Injustice. She deserves to know, yet I am silent.

What can I do about it?

The Tower
This is what I expect when I do come forward with my truths, and give notice.
When I turned this card over, I actually laughed. My brain said "Ride the Lightning!"

Keep feeling they are telling me, do what ya gotta do. Get on with it.

I'm almost there. I just need to hear back about the budget - need to know when they can start me full time. Will it be weeks or months?

How will I be after the changes?

Queen of Pentacles
I will be stable, secure and able to provide for my family.

This makes me feel better. I just have to get past the ugliness.

Having a rough time of it. Working six days a week is slowing killing me. Not sure how long I can hold out. Not doing a full spread today - not enough time or mental capacity. Just asked a few questions. Just to keep to my schedule, sort of. Though my Wednesdays will be more difficult, as I am working that day now.

1. Why is it so hard to do? (quitting my job)


Strength
Sometimes things take courage. Not all worthwhile tasks are easy ones. I just need to "buck up" and do what needs to be done.

2. Will I be able to carry the load?(Working the two jobs - 6 day work weeks, til the new job can take me full time)

The Devil
I take that as a no. I see myself chained in this situation, and those chains are dragging me down. This past week - moving into week 2 now - has been hell.

3. How long will/can I hold out?


9 of Wands
I asked the question, but never really worked with timing in readings, so any help on this would be awesome. 9 days? 9 weeks? til the 9th of April?

4. Totally unrelated question: Should I consider moving, for my son's sake?

2 of Wands
I need to think long and hard before seriously considering this.

April 1 - Wednesday

Crossing the River Spread

Someone used this recently, I think. Thought I'd give it a go.

1. Start - where you are now in the situation
2. End - where you wish to be
3. River - what obstacles are in the way.
4. Bridge - how to overcome these obstacles

1. 6 of Wands
Not sure I get this. I am feeling triumphant, successful. The lwb speaks of being successful in dreams, but I don't get the dream part in this. But I suppose it could fit. I am feeling wanted by both employers and thats a good feeling.


2. The Tower
I want this move, which will be a big change over where I've been for the last 2+ years.


3. 9 of Chalices
I'm set in my ways. I've been content in my present job and have a hard time taking the necessary steps to shake up my little status quo. Change is hard. Its nice just sitting here on my little stool. Comfortable.


4. Queen of Pentacles
If I am to overcome my inertia, I will need to be practical and pragmatic. I am the supporter of my household. I need to to what needs to be done to ensure my family is safe and well cared for.

I saw her as a real wake up call, here. Kind of what are you hemming and hawing about? You have work that needs to be done. I must PROVIDE, and I know in my heart what the best opportunity for me is. It should not be so hard.